It's been a weird summer for the JJ Langebartels household....the stress over the past few months has made me a bit angry....and a tad bit extra angry at other times.
My prayer this morning:
Breath new life into me. Uproot the anger and bitterness. My way is not the way of everyone and is not necessarily the "right" way. Drench me in grace.
From that two line prayer, I felt the Lord speak this over me:
First, choose forgiveness.
Cherish those that love you right.
Embrace those you don't always agree with.
Laugh with those that have unintentionally hurt you.
Love those that have treated you unfairly.
Release the seed of resentment and anger before it has a chance to entwine and root around your heart. It's easy once the moment everything has been made right to forgive, but choose to forgive when you would rather stew and feel as if they do not deserve your forgiveness.
I will show up there.
No more excuses, daughter. Your reasoning for choosing anger-even when justified-will overshadow and deeply darken joy filled moments in your day.
Your heart is one of Justice but when improperly worked, it can be destroying. Let me teach you what it means to seek Justice with love.
Today, surrender the anxiety.
Today, be joyous and thankful for all you have.
Today, be mindful that you cannot control tomorrow.
Today, embrace the husband that loves you and the beautiful children you get to raise.
Turn your eyes from all that you do not have.
There is no amount of worry today that will help guide tomorrow.
Release your clinched fists, I would like to take control now.
Trust me.
I'm ready.
